Here I am again.. Alone with nowhere to go.. This is not the 1st time that it has happened.. Sometimes I wonder and think to myself.. Do I even have anyone that I can call my own? I’m not even happy in my own home. I had to lie to my family that I have dinner plans just to leave the house and after I left, I sat in the car and ponder.. Going to SS2 and eating by myself while i try to hold back whatever emotions that I think is trying to get it’s way through.  Maybe this is what I deserve.. Take it as training to what may come in the future.. Failed relationships add on the the angst that I have.. I don’t know what I want or who I am.. Many times it has happen, where I imagine myself dying and just letting everything go.. You never know.. As loneliness sets in the heart does yearn to set itself free and if it can’t be free then I guess the best would be to end it’s suffering.. I guess I lack emotion because I don’t know what to feel anymore.. 

I’ll make sure to keep my distance..
Say I Love You when you’re not listening,
How long can I keep this up.. 

Farewell to you as I sit in my room bidding goodbye to all the memories that we’ve once shared.. Knowing that it will never be the same way it was before.. The void inside my heart will always be there..

Sometimes silence doesn’t mean ignorance or being tired
It means tolerance
It means trust
It means forgiveness
and most of all words sometimes cannot express how we feel at all..

Thus when i’m silent don’t take me for a fool cause i know what’s happening..